In case you didn’t get to hear it on Always Faithful this morning (www.alwaysfaithfulradio.com) here’s the podcast of my story…
In case you didn’t get to hear it on Always Faithful this morning (www.alwaysfaithfulradio.com) here’s the podcast of my story…
I’ve been waiting for just the right time to share my story on my weekly radio show, and this Saturday seems to be the time God has ordained for me to do so.
This weekend marks the 2 year anniversary of my deliverance from deception. November 10, 2011 was the day I realized everything I thought was true for 12 long years was actually a lie. Not only a lie, but an extremely abusive, destructive, graceless and legalistic “Christianity.”
How amazing it will be to look back at God’s hand on my life, and see His enduring faithfulness…even during the darkest times of my life, even through losing everything I once held dear, even when I came to terms with the fact that I had been deceived, He was, and is, always faithful.
How fitting it was for me to spend this morning with Mike Sharpe and his wife, Marna. Mike led me to the Lord 27 years ago and has watched my life take many twists and turns. As I share this Saturday, I’ll start from that point 27 years ago and bring you all up to speed on the mountains and the valleys of my Christian walk, and all that God has done to restore what the enemy attempted to steal from me.
I look forward to sharing my life with my Always Faithful Radio listeners, and hope you’ll be able to join me for Always Faithful this Saturday, November 9, from 11AM to Noon CST on AM 630 KSLR, or streaming live on www.kslr.com or iheartradio.com.
I attended a Domestic Violence Awareness workshop a few evenings ago and was stunned by what I learned.
I was still processing the emotions surrounding the passing of Carla Williams, a woman whom I once called a friend, but now I was labeled her enemy (and the cause for her brain tumor) because I was willing to stand up to her husband and expose his tyranny.
Tyranny: arbitrary or unrestrained exercise of power; despotic abuse of authority. Synonyms: despotism, absolutism, dictatorship.
But here is one of the main things that really stood out to me.
Domestic violence doesn’t start with a gun to the head. It starts with:
- Put downs
- Name calling
Reeling through my mind were the many times Tim Williams would shame me (and others) with scripture, and yes, it really did escalate to name calling. I even have copies of the posts where he would name call and heap shame upon many of us. I don’t have to worry that my memory blanked out those painful moments…I have the proof to remind me of what I endured.
It’s amazing to me, now that I’m on the other side, that I put up with the verbal abuse he heaped on me, and I’m sure continues to heap on the other loyal followers…but it’s just another way he would take scripture out of context and use it to justify his shameful and abusive behavior…after all, “no discipline seems pleasant at the time” is a great line to keep someone trapped in bondage, and shame them into silent submission.
The control and isolation were two other components that kept me captive, but at the time, of course, I didn’t see it. The “us vs. them” mentality of the group fed the acceptance of such control and isolation… we were convinced it was for our own good. Now that the scales have been removed from my eyes, it’s clear as day.
So, to those who still believe in the lie, I am praying for you. That someday you will have the courage to see what is right in front of your face, come out of denial, and allow God to rescue you out of the pit you are in. He has been raising red flags for years, but you have been conditioned to turn those red flags around onto yourself and declare yourself “in sin” for questioning.
Today marks 22 months that I have been delivered from deception.
Just yesterday I received the demand letter I showed in the last post…so timely that it arrived only hours after the Lord had me reading Psalm 25.
This verse jumped out at me, unbeknownst to me that God was, at that very moment, continuing to prove Himself to be a God of justice!
No one who trusts in You will ever be disgraced, but disgrace comes to those who try to deceive others. Psalm 25:3
To watch, from a distance, God’s judgment on this group is a sobering thing, to say the least.
And while they blame me for all their woes, the word is clear, that those who try to deceive others will be disgraced.
*I do not believe Carla’s brain tumor is judgment on her, rather it is judgment on her husband, who has, for 35 years, used others to do his bidding. Carla and Malcolm have been his primary puppets (along with his 2 sons), and it is obvious that God is taking away all his props. He will stand before God for the destruction he has caused to so many.
My prayers continue to reach the Throne of Grace for those whose lives have been ravished by these abusive leaders…one woman who used to be my roommate, was listed on the demand letter, showing she now lives back in Northern California. Praise God she escaped, but I can just imagine the shape she is in. After selling everything she owned (over half a million dollars in property) and “laying it at the apostle’s feet” (of course, manipulated completely by Tim Williams to give everything without holding anything back…after all, if she did, she’d end up struck dead like Sapphira in the book of Acts), I’m sure her condition is devastating. I watched her become the brunt of so much abuse by the wolf in sheep’s clothing, I can only pray that she will come to realize that God was grossly misrepresented by Tim Williams, and that she will allow God to gently restore her and surround her with safe people.
This particular statement was made on the witness stand by Josiah Williams the youngest son of Tim and Carla Williams and the Executive Director at WinePress. You can see the entire article here in the Courier Herald.
After she sold the business in April 2010, shortly after, she put in her resignation from WinePress and Sound Doctrine Church,” Williams said.
He testified there were several disputes concerning the sale of the business and taxes owed on the business.
Williams said the business was sold to Sound Doctrine for $10 with more than $300,000 owing in taxes.
He said there was also a dispute over who would pay sales taxes owed on capital gains for about $86,000.
I’d like to add some facts to these statements to show the kind of mind control and intimidation Tim Williams uses even on his own family. These statements are completely false and were obviously spoon fed to Josiah, to keep him as a loyal and committed follower.
1) I turned in my resignation on November 10, 2011 – I would not consider 20 months to be “shortly after” the business was sold. – EXAGERATION
2) When the business was transferred to Sound Doctrine for $10 there were approximately $350,000 in liabilities…none of them taxes. These were monies due printers, editors, vendors, authors, and other various organizations, none of them governmental. – LIE
3) There was never a dispute about who would pay the sales tax on the transfer of assets. Even though it was clearly the church’s responsibility to pay it, I was convinced that it was my responsibility to pay. I wrote a letter to Malcolm stating that the State of Washington required payment within 2 weeks or they would go after WinePress for the $15,000. I asked, “Is there anyone in the church could co-sign a loan for me so I can get this paid?” To which I received a letter from the Sound Doctrine/WinePress attorney threatening “further action” if I did not take care of this responsibility immediately.
It was then I realized I’d been deceived for 12 years and turned in my resignation.
For the last 20+ months I have been painted as a disgruntled former employee. Someone who had made a shambles of WinePress and had to be “rescued” by Tim Williams. One statement was made along the lines of “before I (Tim) got involved in running WinePress, the company charged $20,000 for a book with no distribution or publicity, but now we offer a better product with great distribution and promotion for a fraction of the cost.”
1) Tim Williams book was published in 1998, 5,000 copies for about $20,000. Not only was his book distributed by all the major distributors, it was taken to the Christian Booksellers Convention and was promoted heavily by our publicity department.
2) In 1998 there was no such thing as print on demand, so the idea of publishing 10 or 20 copies of a book for a “fraction of the cost” of an offset print run was not even a possibility.
3) I still have copies of a letter from the host of “Save America” Chuck Crismier where he attempted to address some of the doctrinal error in the book, after he had Tim Williams on his national radio show. The result of this thoughtful attempt to discuss error? Chuck’s WinePress book was immediately taken out of print and his account with WinePress closed. He was shamed, shunned, and excommunicated from the WinePress family of authors.
A friend sent me this scripture the other day…
“Doom to the shepherd-leaders who butcher and scatter my sheep!” God’s Decree. “So here is what I, God, Israel’s God, say to the shepherd-leaders who misled my people: ‘You’ve scattered my sheep. You’ve driven them off. You haven’t kept your eye on them. Well, let me tell you, I’m keeping my eye on you, keeping track of your criminal behavior. I’ll take over and gather what’s left of my sheep, gather them in from all the lands where I’ve driven them. I’ll bring them back where they belong, and they’ll recover and flourish. I’ll set shepherd-leaders over them who will take good care of them. They won’t live in fear or panic anymore. All the lost sheep rounded up!’ God’s Decree.” Jeremiah 23: 1-4 (The Message)
May it ever be so for all those who have been deceived by the Sound Doctrine lie.
Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them.
For the last 20 months I have been in the spotlight of amazingly yellow journalism on www.enumclaw.com. I have not been able to read more than a few articles, as every time I do I want to defend myself, hire an attorney to sue them for defamation, post a rebuttal, and on and on…in short, I want to fight back.
I have refused to do so, until today. No, I’m not wasting my money on a lawyer to sue them. But after reading the most recent article in the Courier Herald, I felt a factual response was appropriate based on Ephesians 5:11.
I want to focus on one statement made:
Abigail Davidson said Fraser and his wife lived with her and her children for five years and was like an ‘uncle’ to her children.
She said the church’s website, Enumclaw.com, ‘has done nothing but try to defend the character of Malcolm and our church, (it is) not trying to defame anybody.’
First, let me say that Abigail Davidson is the name my former daughter-in-law gave herself (or claims God gave her) after divorcing my son, Ailen Dean, when he chose to leave the cult. Her birth name is Tia, and I knew her as Tia Dean. And those children that lived with the pedophile are still my grandchildren, even though they have been turned against me and their father in ways you could never imagine. For her to not even ask the question… “Could Fraser be guilty? Could he have done the same to my daughter?” is unconscionable and negligent.
But it’s exactly what I expected…you see, not long after the victim’s family left the cult, Tim Williams started blogging about The Innocence Project. He started making a big deal about how people get sent to prison when they aren’t even guilty of the crime, (and granted, some do). A short time later he started blogging about False Memory Syndrome, saying you can never believe it when someone says they were sexually abused as a child…they’re probably just trying to get attention.
So of course, when the truth comes out all these years later, the entire group is up in arms calling it false accusations…of course, blaming me…and no one in the cult even asks the question… “could it be true?”
Are you connecting the dots yet?
Yep, the brainwashing strategy of Tim Williams is classic, cunning, and wildly successful in this small group of followers.
But here’s the point I wanted to make about Tia (Abigail)’s statement. She said:
The church ‘has done nothing but try to defend the character of Malcolm and our church, (it is) not trying to defame anybody’.
Because I won’t waste my time to read everything that’s on there, I will comment on just a one item that proves her statement to be a complete LIE.
How about the one about the Enumclaw Police helping me to steal $20,000 worth of furniture and belongings from my former roommates?
Here’s a perfect example of the way Tim Williams’ rhetoric works…he omits anything that could change the way the story is perceived…even if it’s the TRUTH.
On the surface, it sounds pretty bad…
But there are a few facts he “forgot” to mention:
Now, go back and read that post, and you tell me what you see.
I’ve read a few other of the scandalous postings charging me with all sorts of crimes. I think rather than address any of the other lies, what I’ve already pointed out is proof enough that Tim Williams is a mastermind manipulator, controller, abuser with Hitler-like power to sway his followers into lying in a court of law. He will twist the facts, omit the facts, and lie about the facts, just to try to protect his little kingdom of 40 followers, (including children).
When I walked away on November 10, 2011, I chose to obey Ephesians 5:11. I chose to have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness perpetrated by Tim Williams and Malcolm Fraser, but rather expose them. I have been not afraid to tell my story…after all, they’d already gotten everything from me over the 12 years I was deceived…nothing really left to get, so I was willing to expose those deeds of darkness knowing the backlash would be ominous.
At times it has hurt to see those who were once friends believe the lies that are being told, but He continues to encourage me through those who hear from the Holy Spirit and can see through the rhetoric. I received this email yesterday from someone who sensed in the Spirit something was wrong at WinePress and set out to find me, when she Googled my name she saw all the junk they’d posted…here’s what she said…
“I know you’re a very busy woman, but I thought of you when reading Psalm 27, especially verses 12-14 ‘Give me not up to the will of my adversaries, for false witnesses have risen up against me; they breathe out cruelty and violence.’ V. 13 ‘(What, what would have become of me) had I not believed that I would see the Lord’s goodness in the land of the living!’ V. 14 ‘Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord.’”
And that is exactly what I’m going to do. Continue to be brave and of good courage…I choose to allow my heart to be stout and enduring…I wait for and hope for and EXPECT the Lord to expose all that needs to be exposed in order for those who are still in deception to break free.
You know, if I didn’t know better, I might think some of what they are saying could be true. But I understand the “group think” (because I once believed it) and I understand fully how these people have been manipulated into thinking any criticism, any question, any demand to be held accountable for actions is labeled slander, hate crimes, gossip, and a host of other labels that attempt to discredit the person who is speaking out. It also has been carefully and strategically planned to keep the “group” isolated from any sound reasoning.
They have been pre-conditioned (using scripture out of context for many, many years) to think that anyone who does not agree is the enemy and listening to them would endanger their “salvation”…and so, they stay in the dark, cut off from family and friends who have tried and failed to point out the obvious. Yes, they stay in the darkness of the lie they have believed is truth, and are fed only what Tim Williams wants them to know, half truths, twisted truth, stories omitting significant facts, and flat out lies. Yes, this is how cult leaders operate, and Tim Williams is one master manipulator.
Pretty amazing that I could be responsible for his wife’s brain tumor, that I could talk a teenager into fabricating a story and then going before a judge and jury retelling unmentionable things, and that I could get the prosecutor and judge to ignore “evidence” …and wow…I am so powerful I could be responsible for the “pastor” to be “unjustly” found guilty on all charges and sent to prison.
Laughable, but so, so sad at the same time.
To think I gave my credibility in Christian publishing to this group, on a silver platter, and now they are using it to not only slander and defame me, but many others who have had the courage to tell the truth.
Lord, have mercy.